Finding some "ME" Time

IT'S TIME TO DO ME

2010-06-19T16:57:00.000-07:00

I decided a couple of weeks ago to have a talk with God about my weight. I humbled myself and asked him for his help. I was tired of feeling emotionally drained and disappointed. I was tired of riding on the "weight loss roller coaster." I lose 5lbs then I gained it back, juggling between the same 5 to 8 lbs. I don't really understand why I don't have any self discipline. Why is it so hard for me to commit myself to myself? I know that I have high blood pressure & other health problems that would get better if I lost weight. I know I won't feel tired anymore. I know that my asthma will not bother me as much but yet I still can't force myself to stick to a healthier lifestyle.Those were the things I was telling & asking myself.

That was about 3 weeks ago but since then I have been feeling really bored with food. It's seems like I have been eating the same ole stuff month after month and I am so tired of it. My fridge was broken down and all the veggies, dairy and pretty much everything was freezing. God has blessed us with a new much bigger fridge with some pretty cool features and I just love the crisper doors. Now I feel like I want to go grocery shopping and buy some "live" food. Like some cucumbers or some fresh red tomatoes. It has been a long time since I have a fresh tomato that wasn't pureed up & spread in between some cheese & a buttery crust. It's been a while since I have had some fresh green grapes or bananas, two of my favorite fruits.

I came to realize that I am such a carb addict and I am raising carb addicts except my youngest twin because he loves veggies and eat them all the time. I can feel myself getting stronger each day. I can feel myself understanding how important it is for me to change my life. How important it is for my family. How important it is for me to be strong for my friend Pia. How important her dreams are to me and how important it is for me to support her. I want to show my children what being successful looks like. I want to them to know that they can achieve any goal they set for themselves. I have a lot of work to do and I am ready to do it. I am not afraid anymore I have Father on my side. I am not a CAPTIVE anymore! I AM FREE!! As the saying goes "It's time to do Me"
I LOST 10 LBS!!

WAY TOO TIRED!

2010-04-18T19:45:00.000-07:00

So I decided to take spring cleaning a step forward this year by getting rid of the clutter. Not only the clutter in my space but the clutter in my mind. I am one of those persons who has a lot of mind chatter going on. Multitasking all day long. I am constantly thinking about something new and some project I want to do. Problem is I don't put enough of that energy into me. My blog is actually entitled "Finding some ME time" and honestly I am not living up to that. I haven't really focused on me like I suppose to in a long time. My work in my space is almost done..still have two rooms left. I can't believe how much stuff I own. Wow..is the only word I can use to describe it. So many fat clothes, so many fat shoes, so much stuff to let go. I just feel everything in my life right now can use a cleansing and then I can focus on my health and well being more. So as days go by I am going to continue to turn my old place into a new place and then I am going work on turning the old ME into a new ME. I deserve some ME time!

APRIL 6, 2010

2010-04-06T07:25:00.000-07:00

I have been busying with spring cleaning for the last 2 days and I haven't really had food on my mind. I must admit I haven't been counting this week because I feel too overwhelmed. Also at the moment mother nature is over to visit which doesn't make matters any better. On the bright side I am not shoving a lot of junk in my mouth and I am moving around tons. I am avoiding the scale at the moment because I know that it will be a total distraction. Once spring cleaning is all done I plan on starting a personal video blog. I think it would be helpful for me. It's time for me to start thinking more about myself and doing what's best for me.

I GOT WORK TO DO!

2010-03-12T08:45:00.000-08:00

I seriously need to get my act together. I have two major events coming up in my life and I don't want to be the same size I am now. My son is graduating in May which only gives me roughly two months to make a major change. My favorite cousin just recently proposed to his girlfriend which means I have a wedding to attend but the main reason I need to change is for my health. So starting this month it is no more games for me. I am not going to give up anymore. I know that there are going to be days that I might fail but I am not going to let those days turned to weeks which usually turns to months. It's time for a new me and it's time for me to find some "Me" Time!

February Challenge

2010-02-09T05:40:00.000-08:00

This month I am going to work harder on my exercise schedule. I started back using "My Fitness Coach" yesterday and I am going to keep doing the wii fit aerobic steps & hula hoops which are my favorites. I went grocery shopping this past saturday and I made myself proud. I filled the cart up with healthy whole grain products as I am slowly getting rid of white flour products out of my household period. I haven't had much complaints from my family which is so awesome. Everyone is taking the change better than I thought. I also plan on counting calories again this month as it has been the only method that works for me. I have a doctor's appointment today and I am going to get a full physical just to see where I am at. Hopefully my blood pressure is looking good because I have been faithful in taking my meds which I used to have a big problem doing.

WEEKLY WEIGH-IN

2010-01-25T06:14:00.001-08:00

Since my last weigh-in I've lost another 3.5lbs. Only 3 more pounds to go to reach my first 10 pound goal. I have to be honest this week I haven't got in much exercise. Exercise is still the hardest thing for me to stick to. My dear hubby has decided to help me in this department. At first I cringed at the idea because he is such a drill sergent but I realized thats what I need..somebody to be tough on me.

WEEKLY WEIGH-IN

2010-01-18T08:17:00.001-08:00

I decided that my weigh-in days will be on friday for now on so as of this past friday I lost 3.5lbs. I am also going to go with making small goals in 10lbs increments which will make this not so overwhelming for me. So 6.5lbs left to reach my first goal!

FEELING GOOD

2010-01-13T13:26:00.001-08:00

I am feeling good today despite this sudden headache. I had a low cal breakfast which was under 300 cals & I did a 30 min workout on the wii fit which included free step & hula hoops. I just ate lunch which was a little over 400 cals. So far so good!

ROUGH DAY!

2010-01-11T19:18:00.001-08:00

Today wasn't one of my best days. I gave into my carb addiction & I overdid it. I knew this carb thing was going to be one of the hardest things. That's why I am not gonna give up because one day I am going to look back at this post & I'll be so proud of myself for overcoming!

2010-01-10T10:53:00.000-08:00

I spent some time in the bread aisle reading labels. My mission is to start the family to eating whole grains but I have to be careful with my choices because my choice has to please the whole family. I noticed calorie wise the bread choices I had didn't differ much so that wasn't the most important factor. I never really liked whole wheat bread because of the dark color I am a very choosy person and so are two of my children. I like everything thing plain no condiments with the exception of bbq sauce. I think it's because I convince myself that I don't like something soley on how it looks or smells. I rarely taste anything and it's the same way with two of my children. Now on the other hand my hubby, my other son, and my mom loves to try new things. So basically we are split when it comes to that. There is one thing we all agree on however..We all prefer plain ole white bread. So I am figuring I should try a light color bread so I decided on oat bran. So far everyone seems to like it but I haven't got the opinion of my oldest son who is the king when it comes down to choicy. If all goes well with him then one hurdle is over. I have no problems with them and whole grain pasta so that hurdle is over. Now I need a brown rice recipe because a few family members don't like it which includes my hubby. I know there are other varieties of rices out there that are whole grain and healthy I can try. For now I will look for some brown rice recipes on the internet

THE NUMBER ONE GOAL THIS MONTH

2010-01-07T12:30:00.005-08:00

Exercise Is Not The Enemy.....

I keep telling myself that. I have always had trouble sticking to exercise. The only exercise I can remember sticking to was walking on the treadmill. Unfortunately I had to give away my treadmill because I developed heel spurs. I did buy an eliptical trainer to replace the treadmill but I honestly hate that machine. I let it get the best of me now its in the corner being used as a coat rack(I feel a goal coming on). I do own nintendo wii fit, workout dvds, and many more tools to lose weight but I simply have trouble sticking to exercise. That's why I chose making exercise a habit my goal for this month. I am hoping it only takes two weeks like I read somewhere before but with me it probably will take this entire month.

WHITE CARBS WIPEOUT

2010-01-07T12:30:00.003-08:00

I am having a hard time with my fight against white carbs because I am so used to eating them. I been eating this way for almost all my life. I know I can do without them because I have before. It wasn't this hard the last time. I wish I would have stuck with it.. now I have to change my habits and my family's habits too. This is gonna be the hardest battle of my life. A battle that is worth fighting for me and my family. So my first step is to write down the foods I love pizza, tacos, mac & cheese, breaded foods, chips and cheese. Second step is admitting I am a carb addict.. I AM A CARB ADDICT!.... there I admit it. Third step is do something about it. I need to come up with a plan. Also I will need to research some alternatives to the foods I love. Any suggestions?

My goals 4 January

2010-01-07T12:30:00.001-08:00

I was thinking.. in the past when I am trying to lose weight I usually try to change everything at once which never works so I realize this year I have to do something different. This time I am going to try setting small goals so this thing won't seem so overwhelming. I am going to make one or two monthly goals with small weekly goals. Overall I need to lose 106lbs but for now I am not going to focus on pounds because I seriously need to change some bad habits. So here's my break down for the month of January

1/3 -1/9 reduce white flour products
1/10-1/16 Exercise 5 days a week for 30 mins
1/17 -1/23 1 serving of cheese per day
1/24-1/30 drinking 6-8 oz of water per day

monthly goal to make exercise a habit
major goal lose 5% of my body fat which equals about 13 lbs

2010!

2010-01-04T19:15:00.001-08:00

I made a promise to myself, my family and my best friend that I was going to make this year my year to shine.
I remember I vowed to be my goal weight by my 30th birthday but yet I am about to turn 34 next month and I weigh more than I did then. I am tired of being a VICTim it's time to be a VICTor! So the battle begins...again...

THIS WEEK'S WEIGH IN

2009-10-29T10:58:00.000-07:00

This week I lost a half of pound and I am happy. I know that might not be much to some people but it's been so long that I have actually lost weight on a continual basis so any lost is a good lost to me. I have been my own worst enemy for too long. My hubby just made a comment to me this morning after I made the decision not to put cheese in my eggs. He told me he was proud of me lately because I have been making good choices. He said he had decided not to tell me that I look smaller in the mornings anymore because I tend to get happy and then end up making a bad decision that day.That really made me think and it kinda embarrassed me because it's the truth. I am tired of being that person and I am going to continue to fight to keep that person away. Here's a post I made last month about my behavior. Luckily, I have been working on this and I am getting better each day. I just have to be strong, believe in myself and keep my faith.

Tuesday, September 22

MY OWN ENEMY

After having a lovely chat with my dear friend, I realized something. I realized that I am my own worst diet enemy. I am the main person who sabotages my own diet. Sounds crazy huh? That's what I thought until my dear friend told me she does the same thing. Let me explain, when I start a diet I usually start off pretty good. Sometimes I would do good for a couple of weeks, then I would get on the scale and actually see a lost. I would be so happy and proud of myself but later that night I would do something to sabotage my diet. It could be anything from havng a slice of pizza and then I have to have another or simply having a beer at a party and the next day deciding I want another. Then before I know it I have gained the pounds back that I lost. Now I am back to square one and starting a diet plan all over again! Same with my friend. Looking into this deeper I now know that if I don't change this behavior I will never succeed. I will never see a healthier, leaner me. Something has got to give, either I am going to remain obese and unhealthy or I am going to fight for my health. I promised my friend that I would email to her each day my stats with no lies and she promised me the same. No more sugar coating anything!

Quitters Never Win!- Winners Never Quit!

told to me once by a wise man

CHRISTMAS CHALLENGE

2009-10-27T09:25:00.000-07:00

One of my dear friends has started a Christmas Challenge for herself so I decided that I want to join her. I challenge myself to lose at least 10lbs by Christmas starting this friday Oct 30th. Usually this time of the year I put on a few lbs but all of that is about to change. I am about to see just how disciplined I could be.

THIS WEEK'S WEIGH IN

2009-10-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

Oops I realized I didn't post my weigh in for last week so I will do it now... My mind was totally on my 10th year anniversary all week. Well I actually lost 1 lb can't say I was shock because I wasn't. I figured I had lost something because I was able to zip a jacket of mine without it feeling snug and usually I have to wear that thing open.

As for this week..I didn't gain or lose. I guess I should be happy I didn't gain but it's totally time to kick myself and buckle down on my exercises. I must remember that the holidays are around the corner and I tend to gain weight.

GOOD FATS & BAD FATS

2009-10-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

I found this very interesting article about good fats & bad fats on lowfat lifestyle.com so I decided to share.

Fat is an important part of a healthy diet. There's more and more evidence that many fats are good for us and actually reduce the risk of heart attack and stroke. They also help our sugar and insulin metabolism and therefore contribute to our goals of long-term weight loss and weight maintenance. And because good fats make foods taste better, they help us enjoy the journey to a healthier lifestyle. But not all fats are created equal--there are good fats and bad fats.

"Good" fats include monounsaturated fats, found in olive and canola oils, peanuts and other nuts, peanut butter, and avocados. Monounsaturated fats lower total and "bad" LDL cholesterol - which accumulates in and clogs artery walls--while maintaining levels of "good" HDL cholesterol, which carries cholesterol from artery walls and delivers it to the liver for disposal.

Omega-3 fatty acids - polyunsaturated fats found in coldwater fish, canola oil, flaxseeds, walnuts, almonds, and macadamia nuts--also count as good fat. Recent studies have shown that populations that eat more omega-3s, such as Eskimos (whose diets are heavy on fish), have fewer serious health problems such as heart disease and diabetes. There is evidence that omega-3 oils help prevent or treat depression, arthritis, asthma, and colitis and help prevent cardiovascular deaths.

"Bad" fats include saturated fats - the heart-clogging kind found in butter, fatty red meats, and full-fat dairy products. "Very bad" fats are the manmade trans fats. Trans fats, which are created when hydrogen gas reacts with oil, are found in many packaged foods, including margarine, cookies, cakes, cake icings, doughnuts, and potato chips. Trans fats are worse than saturated fats; they are bad for our blood vessels, nervous systems, and waistline.

Just recently, the FDA ruled that by 2007, food manufacturers must list the amount of trans fats in their products on the label. (The natural trans fats in meat and milk, which act very differently in the body than the manmade kind, will not require labeling.)

My Calorie Intake

2009-10-14T13:11:00.000-07:00

According to Sparkpeople I am to consume between 1200 and 1550 calories per day in order to reach my goal weight by September 30, 2010. Also I must burn 870 calories a week. If I am really serious about this thing I got to get serious about this thing. Since tomorrow is my wedding anniversary I will wait until friday to write out a meal/exercise plan. I know what you thinking I should be doing that right now but I am going to enjoy my anniversary without stressing over anything. It's as simple as that!

8 FOODS THAT PACK FIBER

2009-10-07T16:19:00.000-07:00

Here are eight foods that pack a lot of fiber:

Lima beans (3 tablespoons): 13 grams

Buckwheat cereal (1 cup): 10 grams

Artichoke (1 large): 10 grams

Soybeans (1/2 cup): 10 grams

Almonds (24): 5 grams

Peanuts (30): 5.5 grams

Oatmeal (1 cup, instant): 3–4 grams

Cheerios (1 cup): 3 grams

source: http://ask.doctoroz.com/question/foods-high-in-fiber

THIS WEEK'S WEIGH IN

2009-10-07T13:02:00.000-07:00

I was totally shocked when I stepped on the scale this week. I just knew I gained weight while I was sick because I was doing alot of eating. Also we just had a birthday celebration in the household which meant cake. Luckily for me all I gained was a half of pound. Not bad for a week of eating and not exercising. Although I got lucky this week I don't plan on pressing my luck this week. Besides a gain is a gain.

WHAT TYPE OF BUG?

2009-10-07T12:55:00.000-07:00

This past week my household got struck with a very powerful cold bug. I know what you are thinking but it wasn't H1N1 but a cold bug courtesy of my lil cousin. He came over coughing and before we knew it the entire household was sick. This could have been a golden opportunity for me to lose some weight with no effort but unfortuantely I tend to eat when I am sick. This week I am still feeling weak and all I want to do is sleep but I have work to do. I got to find away to fight through this fatigue.

GUILT FREE MCDONALD'S

2009-09-26T09:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I ate lunch at one of my favorite fast food joint McDonald's. Thinking I was eating smart I decided to eat a double cheeseburger, small fry and small drink since I usually have a quarter pounder with cheese value meal which includes medium fries and medium drink. After feeling tremendous guilt I went online to get the nutrition facts of my meal and I was totally shocked. To my disappointment my meal totaled a whopping 840 cals! I was outraged that I wasted half of my days calories on one meal. Now I have been down the road of depriving myself and failing everytime, so this time around it is not an option. So my solution is to find lower calorie items on their menu.
My first thought was to substitute the double cheeseburger for a single cheeseburger keeping the small fry and substituting a regular small drink for a diet one. The calorie total for that was 530 which saved 310 calories from my first choice but I am thinking that's still too much. So with a heavy heart because I love them so much I decided that I have to substitute the french fries with apple dippers. What a big difference that made. The total calorie count for this meal came out to be 330! If only I would have went for this option I could have saved myself a whopping 510 calories and I wouldn't felt any guilt for having a meal at one of my favorite fast food spots.
If you are reading this and you want to check the calorie count of your next meal at Mickey D's I suggest you visit their website at http://www.mcdonalds.com/ or ask the cashier for their nutrtional facts. Believe me you will be glad you did.

Eating Smart Is Only Half The Battle!

THIS WEEK'S WEIGH IN

2009-09-24T21:15:00.000-07:00

I lost 2 lbs this week thats a total of 7 lbs alltogether. I still have a long road ahead of me but I am proud of myself. I have 100 more lbs to go so I am going to work hard this week to avoid self sabotage. If I don't I will never be successful. You can't win the race if you are constantly hanging around the start line. I can't believe I just came up with that one. lol

"A LOSER 2 B PROUD OF"

2009-09-22T10:16:00.000-07:00

This week I chose Sherri Shepherd as

"A Loser to be Proud of"

Sherri Shepherd’s transformation almost didn’t happen: After losing a whopping 30 pounds since her 2007 debut on The View, she began to see the weight creep back on. Rather than surrender, she made a public vow in May to get herself swimsuit-ready.
“This is my marathon,” Sherri, 42, says — and it looks as if she’s winning the race. The talk show co-host and star of Lifetime’s upcoming sitcom, Sherri, has lost 41 pounds in total, dropped 10 dress sizes and cut 10 inches off her 5′1″ frame.

source: www.okmagazine.com

MY OWN ENEMY

2009-09-22T09:26:00.000-07:00

After having a lovely chat with my dear friend, I realized something. I realized that I am my own worst diet enemy. I am the main person who sabotages my own diet. Sounds crazy huh? That's what I thought until my dear friend told me she does the same thing. Let me explain, when I start a diet I usually start off pretty good. Sometimes I would do good for a couple of weeks, then I would get on the scale and actually see a lost. I would be so happy and proud of myself but later that night I would do something to sabotage my diet. It could be anything from havng a slice of pizza and then I have to have another or simply having a beer at a party and the next day deciding I want another. Then before I know it I have gained the pounds back that I lost. Now I am back to square one and starting a diet plan all over again! Same with my friend. Looking into this deeper I now know that if I don't change this behavior I will never succeed. I will never see a healthier, leaner me. Something has got to give, either I am going to remain obese and unhealthy or I am going to fight for my health. I promised my friend that I would email to her each day my stats with no lies and she promised me the same. No more sugar coating anything!

Quitters Never Win!- Winners Never Quit!

told to me once by a wise man

Thank you

2009-09-09T18:24:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to take a moment to thank my cousin Pashyen for coming over and exercising with me. My arms are still sore from the heavy bag. Maybe tomorrow we will get through the yoga without laughing. I really enjoyed myself. Who would've ever thought that I would actually look forward to exercising.

Ready, Set, Go!

2009-09-09T17:04:00.000-07:00

I'm taking a different approach this time around. I have tried so many different things in the past from pills to shakes. You name it I probably tried it. This time around will be different because I know what has really worked for me and what will work now. Exercise is one of those things and counting calories is the other. I really don't like to exercise which is why I chose to pop in my old yoga vhs and give it another try. I have been taking exercise for granted. I haven't took in the consideration that there are people in this world that can't walk and wish that they can exercise. I am blessed and I don't show it. With this in mind I have decided that I will make exercise one of my top priorities each day. It's time to stop using excuses and get off my butt and work for what I want.

2009-08-30T19:14:00.000-07:00

This is my first entry in this blog so I guess I should introduce to myself. My story is pretty much the same as mostly all obese people in this world. I gained weight and lost weight only to gain more weight then the cycle continues. At one point I convinced myself that I didn't care. I was going to be happy and deal with the cards I have been dealt.

Then health problems started creeping in. Asthma, Heel spurs, allergies, high blood pressure and now I have been having joint and knee pain. I am in the category with the obese because of my height. I'm pretty short 5'1" which makes watching my weight more critical. My health puts me in risk for diabetes, heart disease, high cholestrol and cancer. So why haven't I done something about it?...I have no idea. I have asked myself that question repeatedly and I honestly can't find an answer. So I will look deep inside myself and hopefully as I get healthier I will find the answer to this and many other questions I have asked myself.